I have been missing for approximately a week since it was exams.
Honestly, I did try my best, as would anybody else, but I didn't exactly slog away at books or anything, which was a pity, because if I did, I know I wouldn't then have to waste so much time for Promos.
First paper was General Paper, I wrote like 4 and 1/4 pages of crap for the essay?? Well, not exactly crap, it made sense somehow, and I did an essay plan and tried to always link it back to question(which I am very very bad at). Comprehension there was 5minutes left in the exam and I was checking through my papers and I discovered I COMPLETELY MISSED OUT ON THE LAST PAGE!! And I had to rush through what hell was worth to finish it in time.
Second paper was Geography. Geography=Bad. Physical landscapes and me, yeah we just don't click. Nuff' said.
Third Paper was Economics. I think I studied the hardest for Econs because I started making notes like centuries ago, even though I couldn't quite remember all the points because my memory is like ... a seal in wax. A non-animal seal, I mean not the ones you find in the Arctic but the imprints. And whenever we want to remember something we've seen or heard or concieved of our own, we subject the block of wax in our minds( our minds contain a wax block which may vary in size, cleanliness and consistency, but in some individuals, its just the right size --> those people we call FREAKIN' SMART). Anyway, to continue, we subject it to the perception or the idea and stamp the impression onto it, as if we were making marks. We remember and know anything imprinted, as long as the impression remains in the block; but we forget and do not know anything which is erased or cannot be imprinted. And if you understand this analogy, my small block of wax is probably one that is not very resistant to heat.... if you catch my drift.
Fourth Paper was Math. Like this paper I only used 6 pages with more than 50percent of each page blank. It was a freaking horrible paper yah and I was sitting there trying to rack my brains for a solution or answer but noooo, it wouldn't give it to me. I couldn't even handle the first question which I only realised how easy it was near the end of the paper. It was total screw ownage man. :( sob.
Fifth paper and the last paper was on Friday, Literature. I too screwed it up quite abit because my lit book of poems got confiscated during the exam!! Like omg right?? WHY?? you ask. Because, whilst I was revising, I was writing stuff inside, and I erased most of it. Then on the day of the exam I didn't really check through every page and so turns out there was still words or sentences or something, though very minimal. And hence it was confiscated. I was trying to ask the teacher to help me erase or something then she said "Just let this be a lesson for you". And my face was turning red and my whole brain about to explode and my emotions wanted to spill out in anger and sadness and downright disappointment and my heart started making really lound drumbeats, like those they play in tribal campfires cept' mine was really really fast. This overwhelming panic halted my thinking and I didn't write anything at all during the first half hour because every word seemed to be just a word on the examination paper and was so senseless! I was even contemplating on whether to just lie down and sleep, screw the mid years since my book was confiscated and shit.
Thankfully, I pulled my act together and decided to continue and try my best. Since it was gonna be shit, might as well shape it into the best damn looking turd you ever saw. So started writing and in the end did okay. Except for the one without the books part. I sorta quoted alot of stuff wrongly since the book was not at my disposal. For example " You do not do you do not do anymore black shoe", I wrote in the essay " I do I do I do, anymore black shoe". Which was kinda infuriating when I think of it because I have been reading that first line over and over again since I recieved the book of poetry by Plath. So my explanation was wrong too. Dayum!!
I'm still thinking about it, its the first time this kind of thing happened to me. I'm not a bad girl.
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