Be careful ah. Dont sleep too much or too little.
I slept at 5am yesterday, or rather today. I simply couldnt sleep and I was tossing and turning in my bed and my pillow kept getting hotter and hotter until it was impossible to sleep. So I read a book til 4.58am then I tried to go to sleep. After tossing and turning for abit, finally slept lol. Woke up at 9am or 10am. Haih. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep today.
I do feel like killing myself or slapping myself now you know, because I was too afraid to get the maximum results out of. I mean it was definetely possible if I actually tried. But I was afraid of rejection so I just ended up with something less than what I could have gotten away with. Damn. So probably all those people other than me probably got something way better and way much more than me. And to to think of it in terms of a year would mean even a greater magnitude that is missed out and it pains me so...
I suck. I know I do. I just cant do what other people do and I am not happy with that. Because it wasnt as if the opportunity wasnt there.I just end up getting less than what I could haveeeeeee whyyyyyyyy why whyyyyyyyyyyyy whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy omggggggggg and that I end up getting disadvantaged and everything just descends into mayhem. People always say dont bite off more than you can chew, but how much can you chew?? How much do you know you can chew?? What if you assume you can chew this much, but people think you're just being too obnoxious and then you underestimate what other people think and you ask for much less than what most normal people chew and then you end up getting the short end of the straw?????
Dannngg
